I should not be annoyed of my boy friend 50% of the time we are together and the lame part is...HE didn't do anything. He is nice and helpful and giving and I am a jerk! Things will be great and wonderful for one week and then I am so annoyed. I have so much respect for him in someways and in someways I am so mad that he has accomplished nothing in 10 years. He has just squandered his time in getting into debt, hero worshipping an older brother and a friend that never deserved such admiration. He is kind of picked on and pushed around and I don't want to be the protector.
I was telling a guy friend about everything on Sunday and he said that I would not only have to protect him from my family and some of my friends, but myself! I didn't want to be mean to him, I just never felt like I could be honest about some things. When I was he would get really hurt. I can't have a sensitive kid...and I think that is my final answer.
I was telling a guy friend about everything on Sunday and he said that I would not only have to protect him from my family and some of my friends, but myself! I didn't want to be mean to him, I just never felt like I could be honest about some things. When I was he would get really hurt. I can't have a sensitive kid...and I think that is my final answer.
i love you my dear. it will all work out alright in the end. trust yourself and never settle for anything. i just don't want you to miss out on something because you are scared. but you are too smart for that, so go with your gut. if these things bother you too much then maybe you are right and that is your answer. all i know is you are fantastic and you will find the person who makes you all mushy all over, yes you. mushy, gushy unafraid brookie! i LOVE you! see you this spring....right? RIGHT?! you are damn skippy right.
ReplyDeleteThanks Miss Dev! Hopefully I am heading down the right track. and YES I will see you in the spring come hell or high water or both!
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