I made it my quest to tell Jake everything...well in my most sincere way as to not hurt his feelings, but to get out what I wanted to say and hopefully not cry. Sadly no one told my eyes that we were NOT going to cry and within my first 20 seconds of him getting in the car on our drive last night they put on a floor show that would make testimony meeting full of pregnant emotional women look like a dry congregation!
I told him that I don't want to waste his time, but I am not feeling like I am in a relationship...I am back pedalling and the more I am going through the motions of a relationship, the more I want to push way. I makes me feel worse that he is 100% in the pool and I don't want to put on my suit and it's not because I have put on a few pounds either. I didn't know what to do. I didn't go there to break-up, but to be honest and see what he thinks.
The Decision
We will date other people. I made him PROMISE that he would really ask other girls out. We would still date and hang out, but I wouldn't feel so guilty for not being where he is if I knew he wasn't wasting all his time on me. He kept laughing about the verdict, but I can't keeping going down the road I am on and I don't really want to totally break-up.
I did tell him that he needed to get a plan together though, because someday soon he will have a harpie and 74 kids to take care of and he needed to be prepared. We'll see how this goes, but I don't feel so stressed about it anymore and now I have cry face and a sobbing, not throbbing headache.
Dating blows...
I told him that I don't want to waste his time, but I am not feeling like I am in a relationship...I am back pedalling and the more I am going through the motions of a relationship, the more I want to push way. I makes me feel worse that he is 100% in the pool and I don't want to put on my suit and it's not because I have put on a few pounds either. I didn't know what to do. I didn't go there to break-up, but to be honest and see what he thinks.
The Decision
We will date other people. I made him PROMISE that he would really ask other girls out. We would still date and hang out, but I wouldn't feel so guilty for not being where he is if I knew he wasn't wasting all his time on me. He kept laughing about the verdict, but I can't keeping going down the road I am on and I don't really want to totally break-up.
I did tell him that he needed to get a plan together though, because someday soon he will have a harpie and 74 kids to take care of and he needed to be prepared. We'll see how this goes, but I don't feel so stressed about it anymore and now I have cry face and a sobbing, not throbbing headache.
Dating blows...
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